Daydreams


Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.

      -Philip K. Dick

 

Hello friends and foes…I’m back.

Not sure for just how long, but I felt compelled to write this evening. It’s been a hell of a couple of weeks on Stephanie Street. Won’t get into the details, but I think it’s time to refocus. Get my priorities straight. Get all the bullshit out of my life. I’m halfway there, but change is not easy. Change takes motivation. And direction. I really have neither, but I like to pretend sometimes.

I’m trying.

STAY TUNED FOR EXCITING LIFE CHANGES(/musings on nothing productive whatsoever)!

(Love you, mom-mom.)

So, in case you haven’t noticed, I’ve put up a new image header. It’s a picture of the coast of Santorini, in the Greek isles. I went there with my mom a few summers ago, and it was one of the most exquisite places I’ve ever been in my life, maybe even beating the Cinque Terre. I can only imagine what the quality of life is like in a place like that. Sure, most of their business is a result of tourism, but that’s not such a bad way to live. Peak season must be a total pain in the ass, but I would think that the local population feel a sense of pride with the massive influx of visitors each season. “Yes,” they think, “this place is truly amazing.”

Whenever I travel to a place like this, I always imagine myself living there. What would it be like? Would I feel disconnected? Or would I be able to form a comfortable, contented, beautiful life in a place like this? I like to think that I could. Because I like to think that at some point, when I’ve had enough of the New York life for a while, I could just pick up and move somewhere like that for a while. Not completely leave my life behind, but just try something new for a while. Learn to live in a different way than the New York bubble I’ve become so accustomed to. There is, after all, much more out there.

Then again this is just a dream. Chances are 5 years from now I’ll be doing pretty much the same thing I’ve been doing the past year. Part of me kind of hopes so. But then I look at that picture you see above. (Sigh.)

I fell asleep beneath the flowers

for a couple of hours

on a beautiful day (what a beautiful day)

There’s a painting that goes along with this. Pretty amateur, but interesting nonetheless I think.